Hello, again
I started this in April, wrote a post, developed imposter syndrome but I am back.
I don’t know what I am doing
This is one of the first times that I am writing without any structure, and it feels so very alien. The irony of it all is that I am typing this out on my “first” laptop, with a mammoth-sized screen, and an even bigger keyboard. Somehow, I was never the one to write journal entries, even though I expected myself to be. Every time I’d try to maintain a diary, I would manage writing “Dear Diary,” thrice in a row before I’d abandon it. So, this is my attempt at a digital diary/blog/newsletter/word dump. Enjoy!
1. Why this, why now
The above title is a template from Substack and I truly appreciate the structure but to simply answer, too many friends have pushed me to the idea of a blog and this seems the easiest way to get my words out. I am not too sure what I’ll write about — maybe just my week, a trilogy I read, a brilliant show with a not-so-brilliant ending, how having coffee at Boojee revives me and helps me respawn, baking, and a lot more.
2. Things I like (at the moment)
My unicorn pjs — I think this is more an all-time thing rather than an at-the-moment thing, but there is something so relaxing about my unicorn printed pjs. My mother essentially got me the largest size in the kid’s section, so yes, these are meant for kids but I do my best work when I am in these pajamas, at my desk, with a mug of green tea. Not just my best work, but my most relaxing days are spent in these cotton pajamas, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Iced Bon Bon from Boojee — This is a very quintessential part of my routine and existence and it extends from the thick glass that houses 16 oz of pure caffeine goodness, into a foundational aspect of my friendship with my best friends. It’s more about what comes with the coffee — saying, “I want my usual” and then not having to say it at all, the conversations with my two best friends that extend into all aspects of our life, thanking our barista for the coffee, clarity, and for allowing us to create “our” world at that table.
Stay-in — This might turn into its own entry, but I feel like a retired party girl with every passing weekend. While I enjoy cutting lines, knowing bouncers by their names, and receiving “welcome back” kamikaze shots, I do feel like I have hung up my party shoes and traded them in for staying-in socks. And I like it! (19-year-old Esha would be horrified.)
Asian Spicy Crunch Salad from Veronica’s — I have started enjoying salads (is my frontal cortex developing???), and I have always been loyal to a good Caeser’s Salad but recently I was at Veronica’s and tried their Asian Spicy Crunch Salad and something shifted. This is how a salad should be - leafy, crunchy, tangy, and refreshing. I didn’t feel like I was eating a garden, and I absolutely loved it and I am waiting for the next time I can eat it.
Keeping a list of good things that happen to me every day.
Spotting planes in the sky.
10K steps and sweating at the gym.
Seeing my friends in my room — I wish there was a way to bottle up what I feel when I see my friends in my room, laughing, painting, lounging, giggling, complaining, and napping, because I could sell it and potentially ruin the market for SSRIs (anti-depressants).
Selling Sunset (poor Aditya, he’s been my sounding board for this show)
White wine (self-explanatory).
3. OK BYEEEEE.
I’m sure I have more to write about everything but this is daunting in itself, so I will stop here and maybe write more in the next week when I have a better idea about how to do this. But thank you for reading this. Toodles.
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